I have no desire to write this. My flesh is yelling at me. Do you know what I did when I heard and saw that another black man was killed by the police? I told myself no, don’t say anything. It’s not your job, it’s not your problem to solve. It’s not your place.
This my friends is the epitome of racism. I’m writing this because once I thought those things I felt God get ahold of my heart and tell me “If not you, then who?”
Who am I that I should idly sit by and watch my fellow humans be murdered and degraded?
If you have no other proof that there is racism in this world use me as your example.
The very foundation of racism is that you can ignore the suffering of others because it doesn’t directly affect you. As white people we can hear about a black person who was killed and go on about our lives like nothing happened.
When I felt the conviction to write this, I thought “but this doesn’t affect me.” What an awful thing to think!
We can do this because it never fully and directly affects our lives.
Racism is so engrained into our society that you have to consciously change your mindset.
Am I purposely racist? No, but I recognize it in my behavior because I am aware that it exists and look for it. The Holy Spirit helps with some conviction too which is the only reason I’m writing this.
Just because we don’t understand the suffering and hardships of black people does not mean we get to forget about them.
I will never in my life be afraid of the police. Sure, I might be afraid that they will pull me over for speeding on the highway, but I will never be afraid for my life if I do get pulled over. I have never once thought of being afraid of the police, because as a white person I have absolutely no reason to be afraid.
Does that mean I can dismiss the fear and hate that black people have of the police? Absolutely not.
For example, just because I haven’t been beaten by my husband does not mean I should dismiss another woman’s fear and hate of her husband because he has hit her before. I shouldn’t give excuses for her husband. I shouldn’t explain why he beat her. You shouldn’t beat your wife, period.
We can’t ever turn a blind eye to the struggles of other people because we don’t understand it or haven’t experienced it ourselves.
I’m tired of being able to sit on the sidelines while my fellow brothers and sisters are hurting. If one of my siblings was being wronged I would be there so quickly to defend them. We should have the same urgency and willingness to defend others who have been wronged. It’s our job as Christ followers to defend others. But we don’t. I don’t.
We don’t because it’s uncomfortable and people look at you like your crazy.
So here’s the deal. I’m racist and I’m tired of having these mindsets that produce thoughts that degrade black people. I’m not sure I’m ready for the uncomfortableness or for people to see me as crazy, but I have no other choice because I have to follow what the Holy Spirit tells me.
It’s time for us all to be real with each other and realize that we are all racist to some degree. We all have mindsets and stereotypes that were put in our heads as children and it takes a conscious effort to free yourself of those. You can’t do that if you deny that it’s there.
I’m not saying I’m better than you and you should know better. I’m saying I’m broken too. I have mindsets and stereotypes to overcome too. I can only do that with Christ and He can only work in me if I’m willing to admit I need His help in it. He can’t bring us in unity if we don’t realize how we are being divided.
We’re all racist and need Jesus to change us so let’s start going to Him for the solutions.