“I was just kidding, you’re too sensitive.” If that sentence makes you cringe or your blood boil you are probably a sensitive person. I am.
For the longest time I resented being sensitive and sometimes I still do. I have started to look at my sensitivity differently though and I want you to as well, whether you are sensitive or know someone who is.
Being sensitive does not mean you are weak. I used to think that it was a flaw. I feel everything. Every word, every action, every tear. Sometimes I can’t distinguish between my own pain and others pain.
When your mother dies I feel that pain and I will weep with you. When you get that dream job I am ecstatic for you. I take things personally whether they are directed at me or not. I internalize everything.
Your anger becomes my anger. Your joy becomes my joy. Your sadness becomes my sadness. It hurts to be a sensitive person. (Duh, right?)
There are three options for a sensitive person.
1. Let the world harden your sensitivity
2. Let your sensitivity overwhelm and control you
3. Surrender your sensitivity to God and allow Him to use it for a purpose
Two of those don’t seem that enticing, but they are the easy way to deal with your sensitivity. It’s how I dealt with being sensitive for so long.
I have let the world create a hatred and fear of people. I was afraid to care about people because it hurt so much. I hated people because there were so many people doing terrible things.
Why did it matter if I cared? What could I possibly do to change the state of humanity?
The last option is so rewarding yet so difficult sometimes. It can only be accomplished by listening to the Holy Spirit on a consistent basis.
I’m not going to claim that fully know how to surrender my sensitivity to the Father and allow Him to use it how He wants. I don’t always allow the compassion I have for people drive me to action. That’s because I still allow fear to control me at times.
The Father is continually pushing me towards loving people better. I definitely have a ways to go and I’m thankful for His grace while He is teaching me.
I’m learning to embrace the sensitive part of me. I can only do this through allowing Christ to use those overwhelming emotions to drive me to actions of loving people.
Don’t suppress the pain or joy that you feel for and with other people, use it to show them the love of Christ.
“For I was hungry, and you fed me. I was thirsty, and you gave me a drink. I was a stranger, and you invited me into your home. i was naked, and you gave me clothing. I was sick, and you cared for me. I was in prison, and you visited me.” Matthew 25:35-36